Never looking back

I have learned that sometimes friends really aren’t friends after all. They don’t have the decency to ask when faced with a question. They don’t believe and blame because it’s easier than accepting. If someone is your best friend, they should be first in line to get to the truth involving one another..not taking someone else’s word as honest. Sometimes statements get distorted and people manipulate to benefit themselves, a true friend would see through that and know it’s false. And if an argument is evident, maybe the facts were blown out of proportion. At the end of the day you need to decide who to confide in, who to accept answers from, and who to look to for the truth. Ignorance isn’t an excuse and avoidance doesn’t create reality.

Reinventing Myself

Things change, life gets busy, we forget the activities we love and become tired. And not just any tired, EXHAUSTED! I think I sometimes put too much on my plate all for the sake of getting ahead. But do we really get ahead or distracted? I am a full-time mother, student, work my own business and try to make everyone happy. Well, I think the reality hit because I can't do everything. I love to write and do art. I love my kids and running a company. I love activities outside and having a good time. I need to slow myself and let happiness go where it falls.

The "imaginary friend"

As children, we create ways to comfort ourselves and fill voids of loneliness through an “imaginary friend.” Our “friend” becomes everything we need and want at that moment, the perfect companion. As adults, this illusion differs yet appears to be similar. We create an image of that “guy/girl” that fulfills our fantasies of a great relationship with the perfect person. Our mind places a trick making us believe only what we want to at that time, just as when we were children. We hide behind this false illusion believing our pains from all the games are justified. The truth is we have developed a new form of an “imaginary friend”, the perfect partner. The difference with this “friend” is that the actual person may be real, but the dream of a great relationship, a companion, that person to comfort us is not real at all. We chase the illusion, pretending everything is as we see hoping to wake up happy. But as with any dream, we eventually wake up. The realities of our “imaginary friend” become apparent and the dream all begins to fade. We start to see the truth behind our fantasy person and the tricks our mind once played. And as if we were those children again, we push our “imaginary friend” away and move on and seek something real to believe in.

Stepping Stones

Obstacles we reach..

Truimphs we achieve..

The people in and out of our Lives..

The weaknesses we discover..

The strengths we develop..

The knowledge aqcuired from lessons learned..

The constant reflection...

The endless hard work...

All efforts we make..

Only Stepping Stones...

we can't stand still

No one wants to be alone. No one wants to fail at anything. No one plans on feeling lonely and emotionally drained. Yet at some time within our lives we have an abundance of feelings that we would rather not deal with. We crowd ourselves with busy schedules, seclude our personal lives from friends and pretend nothing is bothering us just so we can get through another day. As the pain of loneliness builds we are left with a decision, to fight back and move forward or remain alone and secluded. Finally after moments of sad feelings we regard an new found perspective and a sigh of relief. We develop an independence like no other where no matter how we look at it there is still a positive. Although it appears we have lost something we have truly only gained an even better self. We learn to find peace, a bit of patience, and understanding. The things in life that seem devasting are often only a little bump in the road. When one trail ends on our journey, we discover a new and even more exciting path to follow. We explore a different aspect, stop and reflect and grow. For every end creates a beginning to something else...

Believing in ... exactly what?

Have you ever felt so strongly about something that you TRULY believed it would all work out? Or that it must have been meant be? So much so that you practically just can not let it all disappear. What exactly is it that pulls you into this crazy idea that you have to continue believing or else? People turn one emotion into another and expect to find answers. Understandably no one wants to give up when you put so much time and energy into something, anything. But time is absolutley the best test. If nothing has changed, moved forward or even showed real signs of hope and improvement then it's at that point you must walk away and say farwell. Take all the energy and turn it into a positive experience by applying it elsewhere. Find the passions and desires in other areas of life that can better you and allow growth on all levels. Realize that not everything is as it seems and nothing is ever so perfect. Once you come to the conclusion that you are able to end it with or without the pain of failure or disappointment a giant weight is lifted and you begin to feel free.