Never looking back

I have learned that sometimes friends really aren’t friends after all. They don’t have the decency to ask when faced with a question. They don’t believe and blame because it’s easier than accepting. If someone is your best friend, they should be first in line to get to the truth involving one another..not taking someone else’s word as honest. Sometimes statements get distorted and people manipulate to benefit themselves, a true friend would see through that and know it’s false. And if an argument is evident, maybe the facts were blown out of proportion. At the end of the day you need to decide who to confide in, who to accept answers from, and who to look to for the truth. Ignorance isn’t an excuse and avoidance doesn’t create reality.

Reinventing Myself

Things change, life gets busy, we forget the activities we love and become tired. And not just any tired, EXHAUSTED! I think I sometimes put too much on my plate all for the sake of getting ahead. But do we really get ahead or distracted? I am a full-time mother, student, work my own business and try to make everyone happy. Well, I think the reality hit because I can't do everything. I love to write and do art. I love my kids and running a company. I love activities outside and having a good time. I need to slow myself and let happiness go where it falls.

Just Pushing Through!!

Sorry everyone!! I know I haven't posted in a while, been extremely busy. I started my business earlier this year and finally started getting steady customers. I am happy to be occupied by my career, but miss my blogging .. =( I also will be graduating soon. School is finished in Dec. Well, at least my Associate's. Then I will be working on my Bachelor's after the New Year has begun. I am so excited and beliebe me a celebration will be happening. Thank you for supporting me .. love ya all.. Later.

The "imaginary friend"

As children, we create ways to comfort ourselves and fill voids of loneliness through an “imaginary friend.” Our “friend” becomes everything we need and want at that moment, the perfect companion. As adults, this illusion differs yet appears to be similar. We create an image of that “guy/girl” that fulfills our fantasies of a great relationship with the perfect person. Our mind places a trick making us believe only what we want to at that time, just as when we were children. We hide behind this false illusion believing our pains from all the games are justified. The truth is we have developed a new form of an “imaginary friend”, the perfect partner. The difference with this “friend” is that the actual person may be real, but the dream of a great relationship, a companion, that person to comfort us is not real at all. We chase the illusion, pretending everything is as we see hoping to wake up happy. But as with any dream, we eventually wake up. The realities of our “imaginary friend” become apparent and the dream all begins to fade. We start to see the truth behind our fantasy person and the tricks our mind once played. And as if we were those children again, we push our “imaginary friend” away and move on and seek something real to believe in.

Inspiration and Passion

Everyone possess a gift. The hardest part is finding that gift or gifts and exploring what they truly mean. We often look in the wrong places until one day something just feels right. Most of the time we are using these gifts without realizing the real impact we can create. For me it was always art and people. I enjoy socializing and making people smile through art. I like the feeling that I could do something and someone would maybe appreciate it in their own way. I don't need a thank you (though it's nice to hear) and I don't ask for anything in return, it's about making someone feel. I turned all of this into my passion. I work hard and find that I feel something inspiring, accomplishment. I am proud I put the effort into something I enjoyed. I never thought I would make it into a business owner(it was only a dream), but I knew I had what it took if only I applied myself. Now art and people have become my job, my favorite passion. To me life means living to a full potential, finding things to appreciate, my friends and family, and making anyone smile. I think I am on the right track...

It's Simple...

Put up or shut up..! We hear people complain every day about stupid crap they did to themselves. People do not stand up in situations they should be defending. People stop demanding respect and just walk away to avoid confrontation. People even act nice and sweet to get what they want without fighting with someone over it. This would be all fine and dandy if karma didn’t bite them in the butt. You get what you dish out and if you really want to back down, get disrespected, avoid confrontation, or act two-faced, then ..sorry.. you’re going to have to suffer the consequences later.. Stop the complaining that someone walked all over you! Stop wining about being overlooked and ignored! Stop crying when someone figured you out and is no longer taking your bull! If you want to get anything you deserve, you need to hold your ground, have morals and values and stick to your guns..Therefore: PUT UP OR SHUT UP!!

Stepping Stones

Obstacles we reach..

Truimphs we achieve..

The people in and out of our Lives..

The weaknesses we discover..

The strengths we develop..

The knowledge aqcuired from lessons learned..

The constant reflection...

The endless hard work...

All efforts we make..

Only Stepping Stones...

we can't stand still

No one wants to be alone. No one wants to fail at anything. No one plans on feeling lonely and emotionally drained. Yet at some time within our lives we have an abundance of feelings that we would rather not deal with. We crowd ourselves with busy schedules, seclude our personal lives from friends and pretend nothing is bothering us just so we can get through another day. As the pain of loneliness builds we are left with a decision, to fight back and move forward or remain alone and secluded. Finally after moments of sad feelings we regard an new found perspective and a sigh of relief. We develop an independence like no other where no matter how we look at it there is still a positive. Although it appears we have lost something we have truly only gained an even better self. We learn to find peace, a bit of patience, and understanding. The things in life that seem devasting are often only a little bump in the road. When one trail ends on our journey, we discover a new and even more exciting path to follow. We explore a different aspect, stop and reflect and grow. For every end creates a beginning to something else...

Believing in ... exactly what?

Have you ever felt so strongly about something that you TRULY believed it would all work out? Or that it must have been meant be? So much so that you practically just can not let it all disappear. What exactly is it that pulls you into this crazy idea that you have to continue believing or else? People turn one emotion into another and expect to find answers. Understandably no one wants to give up when you put so much time and energy into something, anything. But time is absolutley the best test. If nothing has changed, moved forward or even showed real signs of hope and improvement then it's at that point you must walk away and say farwell. Take all the energy and turn it into a positive experience by applying it elsewhere. Find the passions and desires in other areas of life that can better you and allow growth on all levels. Realize that not everything is as it seems and nothing is ever so perfect. Once you come to the conclusion that you are able to end it with or without the pain of failure or disappointment a giant weight is lifted and you begin to feel free.

Patience is a Virtue

I was told today by a very old and dear friend that I am way too patient. We have been friends now for over 25 years, so she knows me quite well. I guess I never really thought of it as patience but rather as tolerant and understanding. The discussion was based on people taking advantage and not making decisions when it comes to relationships. We laughed at the whole "S**t or get off the pot" theory and realized it was true. I am naive I suppose and to allowing of those to walk all over me and the way I feel. But it's hard to lay down the law when you are so wrapped up in the situation you see no way around. The obvious answer is to severe ties and move on, but that is easier said than done. The hold is there and I feel stuck. I can see a solution and believe it's a positive decision, but the heart closes that out whenever possible. Sometimes I feel so stupid, like what the heck is wrong with me?? The answer is right at the tip of my nose yet I keep punishing myself. I did however get an inspiration at some point, but that seems very distant in the past now. How does one forget and move forward when there is some connection holding you in place?? Can I just shut the door and really feel relieved? I think I am just scared to lose a possibility of anything rather than find my way to the surface?? Crazy life and definitely in need of repair!